Finding God and Who He Wants Me to Be

I Found This

armyguardwife — Sat, 28 Jan 2012 02:37:25 +0000

I really enjoy the article at this address: http://www.whatchristianswanttoknow.com/words-of-encouragement-30-short-uplifting-quotes/
sorry it’s not a better link my link thingy doesn’t seem to want to work for me tonight!!!

I have been searching and looking for things from God that will lift me up, help me grow, and show me more about Him. this is one of the articles that I found. Hope you all can find some use for it as well

be blessed!!!

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9 Years

armyguardwife — Wed, 18 Jan 2012 16:48:20 +0000

Today I have been married to one of the most amazing men I have even known for 9 years. I am so blessed and thankful for the years that we have had and spent together. Some people might think it’s a little crazy to have this wong before this post. But I love this song. And sometimes life is so much like it. One of the things I use a filter for my thoughts is that if at the end of the day I just want to be mad for a while, it’s probably not worth being mad over. God put us here to love and while living with someone and trying to raise a family for 9 years often brings commitments, and arguments, fights, disagreements but in the end loving someone is more important than whatever your personal differences are. There are ways to learn and live together in a way that can brings great happiness and contendedness in life. Sometimes people want happiness or excitement all the time, or they feel like there is something missing. I don’t believe that there is something to be said to having a routine and being able to just be together doing normal everyday things. Nine years brings so many changes and so much growth. It’s hard to imagine what would have been different if I had not shared this time with my husband. I know that I would not be the same person, I know that I would not love in the way that I do. That I would not have been pushed to become better, even if the pushing is very hard to take sometimes. I know that I could not love him more than I do because of what he adds to my life. It’s not always easy, and many times it has been the most difficult thing that I have ever done, but I wouldn’t change a thing!! I wouldn’t want to live one part of it different because it has and is shaping me into someone that is hopefully stronger, wiser, and more loving than I was when we got together. There is a reality to marriage that I believe leads to many of the divorces in this country. And it is that it’s not always loving and pretty and wonderful. There is heart ache and heart break, there is anger, resentment, and rejection at times. But if you work and work hard you can find a deeper kind of love and a different kind of love than we are shown on TV and in many ways in the relationships that we have. People as a whole don’t really talk about what really goes into marraige. They talk about what makes it work and what God wants us to do in general terms. But who really says “my husband and I got in a fight and it got heated and horrible things were said, and I just don’t know if we are going to make it” I don’t hear that much. Of course I know people that are divorced or are getting divorced or who have some issues, but so many times it’s like you know someone is having some issues and then all the suddden bam they’re getting a divorce. And you kind of wonder where did that come from? I knew they had some issues but I didn’t know that it was really that bad. And I often wonder if that’s because people are too quick to say I’m done.

I’ve seen a quote a couple of times recently that said something to the affect of “Staying doesn’t make you strong, sometimes leaving is what makes you strong.” That’s not a direct quote cause I can’t remember it exactly. But I have thought about this a lot and I just really wonder if that is true in any sense. I by no means think that someone should stay in an abusive relationship or one where there are serious issues. And definately in some cases it is having to the strength to leave that truly makes you stronger. But in large part and in many cases I simply don’t believe this is true. Having the strength to stay and work things out, whether it be in marriage, a job, a family, a friendship is one of the toughest things there is to do. And I truly believe that those people have a strength and a peace that can not be surpassed by too many things. It takes a lot of personal power to stay with something that may be painful and that may make you have to look harder at yourself and what you are doing more than you may want to. Giving of yourself and learning to give of yourself for those around you is extremely difficult and requires a very large amount of strength and courage.
the love that growth that I have found in my marriage is something that I don’t think can be replaced or surpassed by any other relationship that I have had in my life, except for maybe my parents who helped to shape me to begin with. I am so thankful to have this man. To have his love, time, and life to share. And to be able to hopefully spend many more years with loving and growing and hopefully being people that God wants us to be learning and growing in Him as well

Be blessed!!!

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Finding God

armyguardwife — Mon, 16 Jan 2012 16:30:48 +0000

I have really been trying to search to find God and a way to give Him glory, and show Him to others in a way that doesn’t totally change who I am. I wouldn’t classify myself as a “nice” person in the general sense of the word. You know one of those people that everyone says “they are so nice”. I’m not saying I’m not nice, I just have my own way about it, and I have a hard time not calling people on things that they know they aren’t doing right. Like at my job. I’m a manager in a restaurant. I have a really hard time when I am asked to over look someone not really doing their job to the best of their ability. Don’t get me wrong most of the people that I work with are good at their jobs, and do a lot. But let’s get real it’s not a hard job and many of the people could be doing more than what they do to help make the store run more smoothly. My general manager has been really working on our procedures and cleaning and trying to get things done more the “right” way. By that I mean that our company basically has a specific way to do everything, a step by step process. It seems like there are too many opinions. I don’t know. I just think that sometimes it’s hard to find what God would want me to do. And how He would want me to approach the situation.
I have long been told that I’m a little abrupt and the way that I speak sometimes is a little lacking. However, I am very good at expressing myself if given the right circumstances. I am extremely frustrated that several of the people around me seem to be worried about themselves and not about what’s best for everyone. In the teaching and learning and just in the being a part of a job that in a lot of ways is like a family. We have a lot of people that have been with us for a long time and I often feel in a way responsible for showing them something different and I’m not sure that I am doing that. I hope that people can see something in me, and that I don’t have to push God in order for that to be true. More and more I wonder if that is actually possible. In order to be more godly am I going to push away the people that I want to help the most. Obviously I’m not Jesus so I can’t just say “your sins are forgiven, go in peace.” Which is a lot of what Jesus did. So I guess I wonder if trying to show someone that there is something different in me is better than just making sure that they know I love God and strive everyday to be more like Him.
I don’t really think of it as a balance, but maybe that’s what it is. Do I act in a way that is different than those around me in an effort to show them that God changes us, or do I preach Him so that people know for certain where my heart is. The Bible says we should have a heart for God, ok my heart is for God. I try and struggle just like all the others, but how do you show someone that without everything out of your mouth being about God. I’m very confused, and the older I get the more it seems I am further and further away from what I seem to have had in my late teens. I knew who God was and is. I knew who I was and I knew that I did make an impact on people’s life without necessarily “preaching” him all the time. Maybe that is part of the sin, and part of what I need to just accept and change. It’s about talking about God and putting Him out there and if I lose a relationship with someone because of that than at least I made sure that I put God out there. I don’t know. I’m one very confuse girl at this point in time and wondering what I can do to make a difference and show God without totally changing the person that I believe He made me to be.

Be blessed!!

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Media/Sports

armyguardwife — Sun, 15 Jan 2012 16:41:51 +0000

It makes me sad that people are under such pressure from the media. I’ve pondered this many times before. From the football players, to politicians, to the president of the USA. There’s no way that any human person can with stand the scrutiny of all that the media brings to bear, and it’s really sad. We are all human no matter what we believe and therefore will make mistakes. It doesn’t mean that we aren’t good at our jobs, or good to our friends, family, and those around us. It just means that we need forgiveness. Sometimes I wonder how anyone makes it our unscathed when the media is hounding them all the time.
It has become clear to me that quarterbacks are some of the most scrutinized especially in the sports world. Even up against the coaches often the wins or loses rests solely on the shoulders of the quarterback especially in the media. If they win it’s that the quarterback is amazing and did amazing things. That may be true, but what about all the other people on the team. You see it more easily when there’s a loss, the line isn’t blocking, receivers drop catches, running backs can’t get going. But when they win no one talks about how all those things did happen, at least not until a day or two later. Everyone just says “Manning was amazing, or Smith isn’t going to make it.”
It just makes me want to scream. I mean give them a break, and look to some other things. I’m sure they feel bad enough already and they don’t need everyone looking at and dissecting every move they made.
I LOVE football!!! Have for as long as I can remember. I love the Broncos!!! That will never change but I increasingly wonder if it’s worth it to put these men through the emotional and pychological effects of a game where so many people only care about the win and what can be done for me. We want them to be good influences, yet we beat them down and help them get to a place where it’s probably much easier just to self distruct. I don’t know really, I just know what is reported and what I’ve seen. They get caught up in the money and the fame, and then sometimes they get lost in the shuffle, as people, as men, as human beings because everything is so closely watched. And don’t ever make a mistake. Micheal Vick paid for his crimes, he did his time, and now he is out. From all reports I’ve heard doing well, changing his life and supporting and involved in many good causes. But so many people have condemned him for life because of his mistakes. There is no forgivenss and for sure no moving on and allowing him to live his life and be that better person. It has to get to him sometimes, I think it would get to anyone.
I guess what I’m saying is that if it’s a team, it’s a team win or loss. Let’s remember that these men are people that live and love and have a life outside football. Have children and wives, friends, mothers and fathers. Imagine how proud you would be if it was your child and how hard it would be to watch them get eviserated by the media everytime they turned around.

Pray for out public figures, forgive them and love them, even when it’s hard. And remember that when all is said and done God is in charged and really none of these things matter all that much, but the way we act, think, and speak reflects on who we are and what we bring to the table.

Be blessed!!!

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My two youngest

armyguardwife — Sat, 14 Jan 2012 03:08:09 +0000

This is one of my favorite pics from this Christmas. I love them they are so sweet sometimes

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Conversation on Twitter

armyguardwife — Fri, 13 Jan 2012 19:16:38 +0000

Ok here’s the thing. I searched christian on twitter to see what I could find. I found unfortunately in that search a lot of posts from people saying they are athiest. Which in itself I find funny…but I disgress because that is not what this post is about. Below you will find the tweets I sent him and the one’s he sent me. I grouped them all together in 2 places the one’s from me and the one’s from him. @armyguardwife are the one’s that he wrote to me if you aren’t familiar with the way twitter works. I couldn’t find the post that I originally commented on don’t know if he deleted it or if I just got lost but I believe it was his last comment to me which was, if the majority was muslim would you want one nation, under allah to be printed on your money. To which I said the following:

@TheAtheistGod It goes back to this country being created UNDER GOD…you take it out you lose what this country is all about

The next posts are one’s I sent back to him after his response to me.

@TheAtheistGod in many places in the world God followers are the minority and face many such issues
@TheAtheistGod if the majority believed in pink unicorns I believe you wouldn’t have a choice..
@TheAtheistGod maybe the “religious” part of it but love for God and Christianity in many cases are not the same thing
@TheAtheistGod yet when we make laws about leaving God out isn’t that making a law about God? The majority SHOULD mean something
@TheAtheistGod why should i have to lose God in order for someone else to have

These posts are his responses to me:

@armyguardwife if christians were the minority, would you want “In Allah We Trust” on your money?
@armyguardwife Believe in magic pink unicorns if u like, i don’t care, but make my kids say “One nation, under pink unicorns” I’ll speak up
@armyguardwife They were not all godly men and many had nothing but disdain for christianity
@armyguardwife There’s just a partial list of the founding fathers of our country who would disagree with you. So learn some history
@armyguardwife I do not believe in the creed professed by by the Roman Church by the Greek Church or by the Protestant Church – Thomas Paine
@armyguardwife Rulers who wish to subvert liberty may have found religion convieinint. A just government needs them not. James Madison
@armyguardwife The way to see by faith is to shut the eye of reason.- Benjamin Franklin
@armyguardwife In every country and every age, the priest has been hostile to liberty. President Thomas Jefferson
@armyguardwife Congress shall make NO law respecting an establishment of religion – First amendment of the constitution
@armyguardwife The Government of the United States of America is not, in any sense founded on the Christian religion – President John Adams

This makes me sad because history or not our country was created one nation under GOD!! I doesn’t say under christianity which I think is where people often get confused. The founding fathers were trying to get away from religious oppession, but that doesn’t mean that they didn’t believe in God or that they didn’t look to him for guidance. I guess that fact that you find them praying over their decisions and choices when foudning this country is just a total farce and was just a crap shoot for them(excuse my language). But I mean really because I consider myself a christian I am evil incarnate to some people, over bearing and hateful, and cause all kinds of problems. I think not. It seems to me that more of the problem is that we are human, we are nasty and selfish and dispite the fighting that some do, and the outrageous things that some “christians” do it’s about being under God not under “christianity”.

I wonder how people can not see the difference. But maybe it goes back to my last post, we are supposed to love and to show love and to be love. Maybe if we do that than we can show people that it’s not about the religion it’s about God, and just because people choose to meet together to worship Him doesn’t mean there is any less love to go around to people of all stations, back rounds, wisdom, and knowledge. But please don’t look down on me because of God when you are asking me not to condemn you because you say you don’t believe.

Be blessed!!!

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Today

armyguardwife — Fri, 13 Jan 2012 17:19:08 +0000

Here’s what I am thinking about today. I read something this morning that has got me thinking about the words in the Bible. Not the one’s we read but the one’s that are the true Hebrew or Greek words. It’s confusing sometimes to think about it, but in many ways there is a lot lacking in the English language and the way that we read the Bible now. There are many words that mean different things to us, and that we take as literal translation that are not.
For instance the word love in English really only has one meaning, or we only have one use for that word but it means many things. So it’s hard when you read the word love in the Bible to figure out what context it is truly talking about and what all the different meaning could be in another language. It’s confusing, although obviously we aren’t missing the major points for it because God wrote the Bible and therefore even with the difference in words and languages the most important things have to ring true. Which also makes me wonder if we focus on things that are so far from important. Love is a prevailing word in the New Testament specifically, so could it be that the most important thing really is love. That it doesn’t matter what you do, or what you say, at the end of the day we love. I in no way advocate sin, or doing the wrong things. However, we often get caught up in them. We treat other people like what they are doing is more important than loving them. I have found that sometimes people can’t change until they are shown love, real love, and often it’s not a change that you see in one day and in some cases one year.
Growing up going to church and with incredible parents it’s hard for me to imagine anything different. But as I have met and been around people that didn’t have those things, I get a sense of truly being lost. The basic things that I would just see as right or wrong aren’t so clear to someone that was never taught them. They have to change their thinking and actions to something that is incredibly foreign to them. And as I have watched these people and seen the growth there is, although maybe by baby steps, I have found myself thinking how can God not love this person? How could He possibly look at what they have done, and how they have changed and say it’s still not enough? I just can’t believe that that is the God that we serve. I don’t have to condone your sin or something that is wrong in order to love you. And you don’t have to be perfect in order for God to love you and cover your sins.
As someone that has always had those good things it’s a slap in the face to realize that though my wrongs and sins may be a little different they are the same to God. I’m just as wrong and maybe in some ways more wrong because I was unwilling to love someone that needed to be loved because I couldn’t get past their wrongs.
Today please take a deep breath and then a deep look at those around you, co workers,family, friends and remember to love them and help them to know or learn that God loves them and that it’s Him they have to please no one else.

Hold on to God and he’ll save your life. This is a country pop song, but listen you can totally apply it to God. Sometimes we forget that even if things aren’t always put out there in a certain way they can still lead us and help us get closer to God.

Be Blessed!!!

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God’s Not Dead

armyguardwife — Thu, 12 Jan 2012 20:09:06 +0000

I love this song!!!
It is so amazing when you think about it. I’m sure all through the years people have been saying that we need a revolution, or that our country, or people, or society, whatever is lost and needs to get back to God. Guess what? No matter what happens GOD’S NOT DEAD!! He’s with us all the time and through everything. All we have to do is reach out and touch Him. If we take the time to stop and really think or let the spirit touch us there is always something we can see that is God touching us.
Can you imagine what it would be like if all those that love Him would stop being so uptight, judgmental, and offendable and just see God. I heard a guy on the radio not long ago say that he truly believes that God calls us not to be offended by things. He pointed to Jesus, He wasn’t offended when they mocked Him, beat Him, and put Him on a cross. He forgave them. Why should what other people do offend us? We aren’t them, and we have no judgment over them. God calls us to obey, forgive, and love. I can say that something is wrong with being offended by that thing or by showing disdain to someone that is also God’s child. We are all His children, some of us are lost and may never know Him but that doesn’t mean that they are not still His children. Sometimes we can’t see something until we are faced with one of those situations ourselves and then our perspective is changed. You think just maybe that’s God being alive and trying to show you, that just because you want to be offended and judge something as wrong doesn’t mean that God doesn’t have plans for whatever the situation is.

Be blessed today! Take moment to stop and see and KNOW that “God’s Not Dead…he’s alive and he’s roaring like a lion” if you just take the time to see it!!

Love in Him always!!!

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Tim Tebow and the Broncos!!!

armyguardwife — Mon, 09 Jan 2012 20:23:43 +0000

I would first like to say that I am a long time fan of the Broncos. Not just a Tebow fan and not just a fan because of him. I watched both super bowls when they won back to back in ’98 and ’99, and I was there for the parade after the first one. People really are crazy about sports and these things are an experience that not many will forget.
But I would like to say somethings about this year. So many people, even fans, wondered how the Broncos won those 6 games in a row that put them in position to win their division. I didn’t wonder, I know. There’s a lot of things that come with having a faith in God, and sharing that with those around you. Not only in your words but also in your actions and the way that you carry yourself. No one and I mean NO ONE picked the Broncos to win against the Steelers yesterday. My husband even said I’ll cheer for the Broncos, they need all the help they can get, but it’s not going to happen. Well guess what folks? They won…Tim Tebow looked good, his receivers made amazing catches and the defense stood up when they needed to. I know there are many people that will say God doesn’t care about football so it can’t have anything to do with Him, it’s just one of those things in life that happens in a good way. I couldn’t disagree more.
First, I think that God loves us and cares about us and therefore He loves and cares about the things that we do and the things that are important to us. Second, I can’t think of too many platforms for God that would be better than a professional quarterback for a big team. There are so many people that stand up and do things for Him and I would never take away from or diminish what those people do for God and spreading His good news. But, man, every week win or lose there’s a camera in your face with people asking you questions. And week after week good or bad you give God the glory and share that with your team and fans.
Second, what amazing things could God accomplish through football? Well, I think we are seeing some of that. People are having to listen when he(Tebow) says it’s to God’s glory, and thank God. They try to get him off that topic in his interviews, but he always comes back to it. He is thankful to be playing, he is enjoying what he’s learning and the people that he is playing with, and blessed that he even has the chance. What an amazing stand for what God wants from all of us!!!
We all know that God can do anything, and that faith can move mountains. Well, I for one have seen God move one through Tebow. I don’t think he’s God, I don’t worry about how talented he is or what he needs to learn. But you know what…God is working through him. I wonder how many lives could truly be changed through him, what a good role model he is got kids and for adults. I wonder if someone out there, maybe more than one someone, will be brought to God because of what he is putting out there week in and week out. I am in awe of God’s power and the gift he has given this young man to love life, people, and the game of football.
I don’t know what next week will bring at the Patriots, but I will tell you this. God WILL be there, His will will be done, and Tebow will be thankful and give Him the glory for whatever it is. I will pray this week that the whole team will work hard, study, rest, and decide once again to make good choices and play with all their hearts and everything they have. And I will pray that God’s glory will be seen in the outcome, whatever that is. I pray that Tebow will continue to make good choices in his life and that if at some point in the future he does fall that people will see him as human and know that being human in no way diminishes the impact that we can have for God on other people.

I hope maybe you will watch the game, and see the majic. But more importantly watch his press conferences, see his joy and love of life. And go out and find that for yourself. It’s out there waiting for you all you have to do is knock and God will open His door wide open for you.

Thanks for reading!!

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It’s been a while!

armyguardwife — Fri, 06 Jan 2012 20:40:07 +0000

Well, I have decided that I am going to try to keep up better with my posting on here. I like sharing my thoughts and feelings and it’s hard to keep people interested if you stop posting all the time. There are so many things that have gone on here. But for today here are the things that I have been thinking about. One people that put stuff out there on social media that isn’t real make me sick. I mean if your life is great that’s awesome..but if you’re going to post the good then sometimes you have to post about the hard times as well. I don’t need details, per se, but it’s annoying when what some people put out there seems to make it like everything is fine dandy, wonderful, and there is never a problem. I have found this to be especially true with marraige relationships. And mostly women, although men do it as well. But I found that it makes me feel like I am wrong for posting when bad things are going on in my life or marriage. It also makes me wonder why young people get married, and then get divorced, or why the divorce rate is so high. I wonder if anyone has ever considered that maybe it’s because we spend so much time putting out there what we think our lives should look like that we forget that reality doesn’t always match. I have often felt that there’s something wrong with me because when I talk to people about my marriage I am often very blunt. Not so much in my social media, although I do share some there as well. But I find myself haveing to make sure I tell people how much I love my husband, because when I say he’s a jerk sometimes it sounds bad. But it’s the truth sometimes he is a real jerk. On the flip side sometimes I’m not all that great either. I do things that I don’t mean, or in a knee jerk reaction before I think and then I regret them, but often the damage is already done. I don’t know how much my parents fought. I’m sure that they did but I never saw it, and as far as I remember there weren’t too many married people that I ever knew there were problems with. Yes, I knew of some that got divorced but in my church family there were few and definately no one was telling any of the kids what was going on. I wonder if that’s not some of the problem as well. How was I supposed to learn about arguements in marriage, or the reality if no one told me or showed me. I have had to learn everything I know, although I still don’t know much, basically on my own or after I made a big mistake when I got someone’s thoughts on it after the fact. Maybe I wouldn’t always listen ahead of time, but surely if we start at a younger age teaching our children about conflict and how we should act as husband and wives there would be less marriages that result in divorce. Of course I have no clue if that would work or not but it seems to me that it’s just as good a thought as anything that anyone else puts out there as a reason there are more divorces now. It also seems to me that maybe when we look at other, especially our spouses, we should remember that they are just as human as they are and that there is something special and sacred in someone that loves us enough to stay. Family is not a given, we are not guarenteed love, family, happiness by God. So shouldn’t we be able to see how blessed we are that at the end of the day we aren’t alone and have people around us that love us. Sometimes it hard to remember this, but I have tried to be thankful for something every night when I go to bed, and sometimes all I can come up with is to be thankful that I don’t have to live alone, or that there is food in my house, or that we have a TV…sometimes the things that I find to be thankful for are not profound but very simple and I have to really think to find them, but I’m thankful I truly as and maybe tomorrow maybe someone I love will do something that will allow me to be even more grateful and remember why I am so blessed to be a part of this family. It’s not always obvious and we all have bad days when it’s a chore just to make it through, but maybe we should try to remember in those times that we should try not to do or say something that will take away from the joy or blessings we could feel the next day if we just kept our mouth shut and did our best to make it through a bad day. Stay blessed everyone!!!

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